o l d e r - l a t e s t - g u e s t b o o k - p r o f i l e - d i a r y l a n d
"At his side, I have seen beauty to make the heart burst with pain..." -Dalamar, talking about working for Raistlin
There is a tree beside my house, and when I run up Schuyler Ave, it is the first thing that greets me when I crest the hill. When people talk about God, they talk about a being whose mind so vastly surpasses ours that we can't understand its thoughts, and a beauty and goodness so profound that it would kill us if we were to fully perceive. Once, I couldn't wrap my mind around the idea that anything so beyond our abilities could exist, and coupled with my newfound belief in science, I ceased believing in that entity. This tree blazes on the hilltop, yellow and red and orange, black trunk, but those are cheap words and don't convey anything. As is often the case, I don't have the language to express how utterly sublime this is. Therefore, I turn back to those authors that I learned to love in my childhood, and the words of the drow wizard, Dalamar. I feel like if I look at this tree too much, I'll just laugh or cry or sit down on the sidewalk, overwhelmed. That is why I can believe that God is beyond my ability to take in. If one tree in one town in New York state can confound me so, it is not at all inconceivable that there are even more beautiful things in the universe.
On a less contemplative note, I found a really cool trail, but I didn't want to go back too far on it, so I'll probably go midday tomorrow, when it's still bright out. Sugar snap peas taste like green peppers, and they make a lovely post-run meal. OK, I'm off to shower so I can see Jamaica Kincaid in an hour and a half! Have a great weekend, all! :)